The previous was a blog I wrote somewhere else about a week or so ago. I have a few changes to make.
Midterm week has been smooth so far. I really haven’t any difficulty with my other classes, and I have a music theory midterm tomorrow which will stretch until next Monday. In my English class we’re finishing a play called, “The Children’s Hour.” My character turned out to be an anti-social person who was insanely jealous of another woman’s relationship… jealous because she was a lesbian. Oh joy!!
I’ve been a a little more social. A guy in my English class has been talking to me more frequently… even though most of it is seeing my reactions to being poked. Rawr. Aside from that, after I met my brother for a while, I managed to maintain a five-hour conversation with a percussion major named Paul. He and I have talked before before Music History because he sits in my row. It was a very good conversation and it felt really good to not only maintain a conversation for that long, but to also not feel uncomfortable in the least.
Normally, when I get in a long conversation with someone, I’ll usually clam up, get nervous, and feel really uncomfortable then leave. How rude is that? I know. I feel really bad. Mostly because most of my life I was a social person, then when someone decided to ruin my life, I didn’t have many friends and had to make the most of my time by myself. So basically, my only friends during those times were my two cats and my dog. Once my junior year started to wrap up, I became more social again… then I started to get uncomfortable with being social. My thyroid acting erratically when it feels like it doesn’t help me either. I get extremely nervous and uncomfortable with physical contact as well. However, the physical contact we did have at points made me feel very comfortable and humble… for once.
To sum things up, it was very comforting.
Maybe I’m on track to being more social. Who knows?
Medically, I’m doing better. Except that I have an appointment with my endocrinologist about my thyroid because it seems to be getting bigger again, which really only happens when I’m really stressed out. I’m almost out of food, and it sucks! I only have a few cans of soup and mini-low calorie bagels. The soup I refuse to eat because every time I’ve had in within the last month, I’ve woken up some odd hour of the night and thrown it up. Ick. As if my suite’s toilets don’t have enough issues.
Also, I’m rather pissed about what Norwich recently did. Apparently the director recently demoted me without warning from staff to assistant. I already let him know MONTHS in advance that I couldn’t make it all the way down to Norwich on Tuesdays and Thursdays. But when I come down on Saturdays, I make so many repairs that no one can figure out while they scratch their asses. Also, when the other pit instructors get frustrated with someone, who is the one who jumps up? Oh, yeah, I do! But anyway, I got an offer to teach at Phoenix next year and to get paid $1500 instead of waiting to get paid squat two years from now.
Anyways… about studying for that midterm….